now THIS is real sadness.

It's 11 months until A gets married and I feel sorry for him. Yes, naaawa ako sa kanya kahit na ba hindi naman sha api at sa ibang mundo ay hindi talaga sha karapat-dapat kaawaan. Pero naaawa ako sa kanya. I worry that he doesn't know what he's gotten himself into. I worry that he's not ready. I worry that he is confused. I worry that he wont be able to cope. I worry that he will be unhappy and in turn will also cause unhappiness to his partner, and to everyone in the world. :-(

feeling ko ngayon brother ko si A at nag-aalala talaga ako sa kanya. Naku paano kaya kami mag-uusap nang masinsinan at paano ko mai-raise sa kanya lahat ng mga life questions without seeming like i really want to tear them apart. Wala akong vested interest sa 'yo A noh.

Actually, baka nga matagal ko na ring tanggap na sila nga kasi sa mga daydreams ko sila din talaga. At maayos naman sila. Sana nga. Sige lang, may panahon pa naman siguro.