me and J C

so i shall take a short break from my life-with-patrick obsession and type up how a little sad I am about me and J. i think that he misses me as someone he occassionaly shares some "deep" or unusual or private/intimate conversations with and that he would like to see me and talk with me some more. I feel sad because the fact that we've done it seems to get in the way, at least on my part. I don't like to regret but sometimes i really think that was unnecessary and now prevents what could be an interesting friendship. Haay.

i miss talking to you too. and yet, i think i'd be half-scared when we start talking 24/7 thru sun cell. i will fall and you won't catch me. you can't catch me. tsk tsk.