three views: one story

Side one:
As you know, have been heartbroken [as in! poke me with a finger, and i would probably cry] the last few days after my reading with B. I realized that breaking up with one's fantasies is just as bad if not worse than breaking up with the real thing. Maybe because with the real thing, things have happened and there are the memories to keep, whereas with fantasies, there are hopes and anticipation galore that has gained "psychic" form and have nowhere to go.

However, I recognize that B is an empath so the things that he tells me are just things that he picks up from me. So I accept it when he says that my attachments are getting in the way of my productivity. Moreover, he said that it's like am half-asleep, drowsy with low energy. I also don't want to live like that. I want to live in the moment.

The reading has made me realize just how fixated I've been, and how much I've taken the hopes around with me, everywhere I go, even to bed :P. I've decided not to think bad of myself over this. Rather, I'll just embrace it as part of who I am, and start to live differently, if only because this way isn't working or my longing isn't helping me.

I am happy however that all of my present blues don't really have anything to do with C himself but is really all about me and my stuff. I am so perfect in my imperfections! Hehe!

Side two:
I like today's astrocenter horoscope-
In the wake of one single event that you weren't exactly happy with, V, it is important for you to not make wild extrapolations, assuming things are going to happen a similar way in the future. Take necessary precautions so as to avoid the same mistakes again, but at the same time, try not to blow the entire issue completely out of proportion. Deal with problems as they come, instead of generating them all in your head before hand.

Hihi!

Side three:
tmatd: oh btw
tmatd: your new address?
tnl: why? are you going to visit?
tmatd: nah
tnl: then you don't need to know where I live
tmatd: :P
tmatd: oh well so much for calamansi for you
tnl: I do have a friend who will be visiting the Philippines this month
tnl: she can get me some calamansi
tnl: (*proceeds to give address that ends with Center of the Universe*)
tmatd: i was going to say nevermind
tnl: now you are obligated to visit
tmatd: Capricorns can never be obligated by others
tmatd: they only obligate themselves
tnl: lol
tnl: so obligate yourself
tmatd: hahahaha
....
tmatd: unfortunately, when we had the class festivities, that was also the afternoon, the FDC women had their Christmas get-together
tmatd: food galore
tnl: you need to priortize you life better
tnl: come to NYC first, then all other stuff comes second
tmatd: hehehe, you're really serious
tnl: aren't all Capricorns serious?
tmatd: you could be just saying things
tnl: lol
tnl: hey, I don't offer invitations I don't intend to fufill
tmatd: now you sound like an annoyed Capricorn
tnl: yeah right! I'm a sleepy Capricorn
tmatd: of course the answer is i would if i could
tmatd: promise
tnl: okay, I must sleep
tnl: we'll most likely meet up somewhere other than the US before you come to NYC
tmatd: are you a fortuneteller
tmatd: goodnight tnl party extra ordinaire
tnl: good night Belly Dancer tmatd