not getting laid

it's the 3rd day of my period. if i take a contraceptive pill now, will the blood stop flowing by early evening?

asked two of my friends and they don't know. tsk tsk. how could i forget some details about how the Pill works? :-(

im 'supposed' to spend tonight @ his place. Last night, after hours texting and talking about the recent mobs, machiavelli and power, warriors, dragons, etc.) i said yes. we even made exciting plans ;-)

but today im having second thoughts. first, there's my period. then, i feel fat. im worried that i might get too self conscious with him :-( and despite daydreaming of spending days and nights with him all these months, today, i so don't feel like it.

so that this morning, i had to tell him "it doesnt feel right. it's too crazy, even for an aquarian." good thing he didnt ask me to explain. i wouldn't have known what else to say. it's definitely not about commitment. maybe it's about having an emotional, intense, soulful lovemaking tonight and the cold detachment that follow days and weeks later. i dont like that.

im very pleased that he said "lets do something wholesome instead. movie? find a book? coffee?" :-) im not sure if it will push thru. he might forget or change his mind. or i might change my mind. (i still feel fat! arrggghhh!) but it makes things so much better. :-)