Believe me. It's not all histrionics around here. I also have flashes of soberity (in between Christmas shopping jags). I also realize am getting over the top on this C business. (HEHEHEHE). This moment now for instance. ... C seems unhappy about wala lang (you know how we get unhappy about little things). So now I want to solve it for him (hahaha) but then think too -- do I really want this kinda situation??? Where am getting riled up over other people's ups and downs??? You know ... be in a relationship ... and be concerned about other people's business and mood meters, all the time??? Do I? Do I really? lol. Or is life really about being contented with one's own mood meters ;-) ... Freedom to stick to my own mood meter!!! ... Single :-D

So what am saying is. Be careful what you wish for V. You may be in a better situation already. You just don't know it.

Like, if it comes to that, can we actually stand to be together a longggg time???? There's pleasure also in company now that you know you won't see tomorrow :-D. Wala lang.

Chika chika only veves :-D ...

More chika. When I think about eX, I know that I love him and wish him well, and I laugh at the load of intense memories. But I don't really need nor particularly want him beside me right now. I am perfectly fine where we both are right now :-)

So. Life is probably not just about being with Ex nor with C nor about what one is doing or wearing or saying. It is but then not just. I think it's about Being. About breathing.

Just Be.